I’m not sure how I should feel about it. Do I try not to think about it? Pretend it’s not happening. Keep the blinkers on and only look forward, even when the moans are coming from the side. It’s the simplest option. I’m not sure my mind would be able to cooperate.
Do I just imagine what is happening? All the possibilities. All the dirty details. Maybe I’ll like it. Maybe I’ll enjoy thinking about her in this way. Maybe it’ll turn me on seeing her turned on. Maybe it’ll inspire me in a new, different way. Maybe. What if it doesn’t? What am I left with then?
What if I put myself in the picture? Just pretend that it’s not just him. It could be me who’s taking over, who’s satisfying her, who’s making him watch. If it was physically possible to be there, then I would do it. What if it’s not enough for my mind to just pretend and imagine? Will I be able to move on from it or will the memories be permanent?
Which one do I choose? I’ll be damned if I know!